For curiosity sake, I searched “what to do if I get covid-19”. In 0.77 seconds (because Google tells you), “about 8,280,000,000 results” populated. Various questions that were included in these results included:
- What to do if you are sick?
- What should I do if I think I have been exposed to coronavirus?
- Can you recover?
- Does drinking a lot of water help flush out COVID-19?
- Can antibiotics treat the coronavirus disease?
- What should you do if you live with someone who has coronavirus?
Without a doubt, these questions are important and should be asked and are included in the top results for a reason. Someone I know shared on her Instagram feed that she was tested positive for COVID-19 and the conversation was, I’m summarizing, something along the lines of “Hi, you’ve tested positive. Now you need to quarantine for (however many) days. If you experience severe symptoms, go to the hospital.” Of course, that was (and is) important information for her to know. However, nothing was discussed regarding the emotional impact of COVID-19 (whether it’s the collective/societal impact of the virus or the personal impact of testing positive). Below are a few things to consider when thinking about the current pandemic.
First…Let’s Talk About Shame
Several months ago, someone I know was exposed to COVID and was tested as a result. When she received her test results (they were negative), she shared how excited she was because there is so much judgment around it. She said, had she gotten positive test results, people would have likely judged and/or blamed her for clearly not following the rules of social distancing. Similarly, a friend of mine found out she was positive for COVID and shared that when she told people she had come in contact with that she was positive for coronavirus, she felt like she was sharing with the world that she had a sexually transmitted infection (which there is a LOT of shame around those…that’s a blog for another day. In the meantime, check out this poster from UnHushed, that provides accurate & direct information about STIs).
Oh, And Fear
There is SO much uncertainty with COVID-19 and how this virus impacts people. Whether someone is asymptomatic, has minimal symptoms (my friend I mentioned earlier only lost her sense of smell & taste), or has severe symptoms (e.g.: has a high fever and difficulty breathing), there is truly NO telling how you will be affected until you are actually experiencing symptoms…if you, in fact, experience them. Because the CDC is constantly learning new information, we do not have a clear idea of a lot of things…which, is NO fault of the CDC (I want to be very clear about that!) This takes an already scary situation and makes it that much scarier…because we don’t have clear information about it and what it entails. If that’s not scary, then I don’t know what is.
What About Grief?
While shelter-in-place/quarantine/social distancing (fill in the blank of what language you’ve been using) has been happening for almost 4 months now (woah), it’s been difficult…to say the very least. Whether you’re an introvert or an extrovert, humans, by nature, are social creatures. Thanks to technology (social media, texting, video calls, Zoom…oh, Zoom), snail mail, social distance outings (if/when they feel right), people have found ways to stay connected to those that are important to them….which is great…AND there is a huge amount of loss that is affiliated with that. You don’t need me to tell you everything that has happened as a result, but to sum a few major things up…
- Graduations were, essentially, cancelled
- Weddings have been cancelled and/or postponed
- People who are pregnant are going to their appointments solo…and when they give birth, minimal people are allowed to be with them
- As people died (whether it be COVID-related or not), loved ones had to grieve alone…or at a socially distant place
- Vacations were cancelled
AND SO MANY OTHER THINGS. Some of you may look at that list and think “Woah…vacation being cancelled is in the same list as people dying alone?” And to that, I say “Yes”. Grief and loss is not something that can or should be quantified. At this time, the world (truly…everyone in the world) is living a collective trauma related to covid-19. Whether you’re 17 years old in Texas…or 42 years old in Indonesia…or 5 years old in Australia…or 81 years old in Finland…we are all experiencing grief related to the coronavirus…on top of any and all stressors that life is presenting us at any given moment.
Ready for a buzz-word? Self-care. Yup…it’s as “easy” as that…which, surprise, is not easy at all. There isn’t a right-or-wrong way to practice self-care as long as you’re doing what is right for you. The suggestions I’m about to provide are 100% just suggestions and is definitely not comprehensive at all.
Allow Yourself to Feel Your Feelings
A lot of us, at various times (I’m generalizing here), have experienced anger. What we often fail to see, though, what’s below anger…whether it’s worry or disappointment or guilt or trauma (or any or none of those things), anger is often just the surface of feelings people are experiencing.
Similarly, there is a quote, that I love that states “I sat with my anger long enough, until she told me her real name was grief.” When you sit with this…it really reveals how complicated emotions, particularly anger, can be.
In no way am I trying to invalidate anger, however, sitting with your emotions and allowing yourself to feel your feelings is an incredibly valuable way to take care of yourself.
This Anger Iceberg gives an explanation (and visual) of what I’m talking about.
…Buzz-word #2. Not sure where to start? That is OKAY. Check out this blog I wrote on 5 Mindfulness Tips & Tricks.
Give Yourself Permission to Take a Break!
We are inundated with highly emotional information on a daily basis…whether it’s about coronavirus, politics, murders of innocent black members of our community, or anything else–it’s OKAY to take a break. Admittedly, this has been harder for me to do (I’m human…what can I say?) But if you don’t allow yourself to take a break from the emotional weight of this information, you are not going to be the best version of yourself when you need it most. Whether taking a break involves turning off the news or social media and reading a memoir about your favorite Queer Eye member (ahem, JVN), do what’s best for you and know that it is okay (and extremely valuable) to take breaks.
Lean On People
Cue “Lean On Me” by Bill Withers.
The words of this song (yes, I listened to it as I wrote this) state:
Lean on me, when you’re not strong
And I’ll be your friend
I’ll help you carry on
You just call on me brother, when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
People, again, I’m generalizing, often feel hesitant to ask for help. Whether it’s fear of looking weak or not wanting to be a burden or not wanting to be disappointed…we tell ourselves SO many lies as to why we shouldn’t or couldn’t ask for help. Rather than listening to those lies, remind yourself, as I said earlier, humans are social creatures by nature. Whether it’s your friend, a family member, your therapist, your former teacher, your neighbor…whomever it may be…ask for help. It might be scary in the moment, but I can assure you it will be worth it.